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I’m so f**king angry

I’m really angry that I have to heal and work so hard to heal from something that wasn’t my fault. It’s not fair and I’m struggling with accepting that this is my life tbh. The anger and rage inside me bubbles up and I lash out at my family sometimes. It makes me so sad because this isn’t who I want to be. This isn’t the life I wanted to live. This was chosen for me by someone who had absolutely no right to. A traumatic event translates to a lifetime of healing and recovery. It’s lonely, scary and incredibly heavy. I feel so empty, like I just wish I could restart my life all over again. I find it so hard to accept, and I’m furious. I cry in the shower, I feel a lot of the time like punching a wall. I wasn’t this person before I was raped. I was happy. I’m hoping another victim may relate to me? Healing is exhausting.

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  • I share your anger. DV, SA etc leaves you feeling choiceless and takes away your sense of agency and personal power. And that’s very very hard to process through. Our anger makes sense though, Righteous Anger my therapist calls it ✊🏼
    Hope you’re doing ok. I really hope there’s some more online support group meet-ups soon, I need them so much 😓